Dear Padma,
I am sorry for what i have done. I had no idea that my misdeeds would hurt you so much. It was our first few nights after our marriage and i betrayed you. I betrayed your never ending love for which i need to be punished. When all you did was think about me and about the wonderful time we had together, i betrayed you by selling myself to the fantasies of myself with other beautiful woman, your girl friends, my colleagues and every beautiful girl that crossed my way. I had no means of knowing what a bastard i have been for all these months. It took me ten months to realise how wrong i was. I remember the tears in your eyes every time i neglected you, i saw the hurt on your face every time i stared at other woman, woman i now realise where so ugly compared to you. I thought all about dirty fantasies when you looked at me with your hurt eyes seeking support.
But i have changed now. You have changed me. You are no longer the instrument to release my lust when i need, no longer the punching bag i can use when i am frustrated, but now i see you as a goddess whom i can worship, the able support i can lean on. Please forgive me Padma for hurting you. From now on you will see a changed man.
Yours and only yours,
S
I am sorry for what i have done. I had no idea that my misdeeds would hurt you so much. It was our first few nights after our marriage and i betrayed you. I betrayed your never ending love for which i need to be punished. When all you did was think about me and about the wonderful time we had together, i betrayed you by selling myself to the fantasies of myself with other beautiful woman, your girl friends, my colleagues and every beautiful girl that crossed my way. I had no means of knowing what a bastard i have been for all these months. It took me ten months to realise how wrong i was. I remember the tears in your eyes every time i neglected you, i saw the hurt on your face every time i stared at other woman, woman i now realise where so ugly compared to you. I thought all about dirty fantasies when you looked at me with your hurt eyes seeking support.
But i have changed now. You have changed me. You are no longer the instrument to release my lust when i need, no longer the punching bag i can use when i am frustrated, but now i see you as a goddess whom i can worship, the able support i can lean on. Please forgive me Padma for hurting you. From now on you will see a changed man.
Yours and only yours,
S
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